Showing posts with label Dark moments that I am sure could be worse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dark moments that I am sure could be worse. Show all posts

Thursday, January 5, 2012

29 going on 19

image from my favourite site about sarcasm and home truths, some ecards



I am too old to be data entering things into power point presentations like a fucking admin bitch.


And not only am I too old, I am too experienced.


I am at the point where I should be using my brain to create, strategise and brainstorm radical ideas and concepts and solutions, not to copy, paste, edit graphs and tables like someone who's interning.


Today, at the freelance office, I directed a video edit about an academy award winning director, with an intern at my disposal.


Tonight, I sit at my dining room table, plugging numbers into Powerpoint presentations to make it look like I have been doing something productive during the week at the day job because what I really do when I am at work is USE MY BRAIN for side projects so my brain won't rot.


Talk about contrast.




Thursday, September 1, 2011

Comforts

Sometimes all a girl wants is a bowl of noodles with dumplings with her friends after work, and a hug from her mum.

Unfortunately, I live in a place where both of those things are a luxury.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Contrasts

Why do I always feel like I am either floundering around aimlessly or a rat in a cage?!

What's wrong with this picture -

- Praying that I get made redundant so I can leave the company ( and collect benefits ) even though it's unlikely to happen

- Having no plan B for if I do get let go

- Having no plan B for if I don't get let go

-Not wanting to leave and not wanting to stay

F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK F#CK

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Soul shack

It's seriously been a shit day.

It's been a shitty week.

I would really really really like to go on holiday to a beach shack somewhere and watch the waves roll in with a cup of tea,
away from computers.

In my head I am reading a book in the shelter of a front deck of a beach house,
while the sun is beating down on the beach,
and a plate of cheese and strawberries are within arm's reach,
I am waiting for a home made casserole and roast lamb to finish cooking in the oven.

In my head I am wearing tracksuit pants and a tee shirt and thongs,
and a bright pink headscarf and big Jacqui O sunglasses.

I'm about to put the book down and lie in a hammock.

And snooze a little bit, and sway a little,
as the ocean breeze brushes my face.

There's soft indie pop playing in the background.

I want to be home for a little while.



Thursday, December 30, 2010

The highs are high, the lows are low

It happened.

The holiday.

The amazing and random.

The discoveries.

The cosiness of being with familiar and loving people.

The thing that was a pleasant surprise that you couldn't have orchestrated even if you tried.

The moment you've been hoping would happen for months also eventuates.

After all the anticipation, it came and it went.

Then, the visitors leave. The alarm clock is back on. The familiar frustrations come flooding back. The uncertainty of 'what does it all mean?' wafts back onto your radar.

Now what?

Monday, September 6, 2010

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

The lowdown on Italy aka A recap on defying death

Apart from almost dying in Cinque Terre, Italy is underwhelming me.

Yes, UNDERwhelming me.

I don't really know what else to ask for; brilliant weather, 3 days of sea views in the cutest little apartment in Corniglia, local tips on where to eat creating some of the most lipsmacking memories I'll ever have, and a double cone of gelati every day, sublime friends to share these experiences with, and now, my own studio apartment in Florence for the night (at a bargain basement price) before I head to Hamburg.

How could this be? What's wrong with me?

Could it have something to do with the fact that the second day I started my holiday, I caught a cold? Or that I almost drowned in Manarola on Sunday?

After hiking from Corniglia to Manarola, then to Riomaggiore, then back to Manarola, Tim, Lauren, Sarah and I peered from over the edge of the cliff face into the little boat harbour/rock pool swimming area.

"It's a bit of a washing machine out there?" Sarah mused as we watched waves crash in and out from every direction.

"I don't think I'm strong enough to swim in that, but I'll sit by the edge with someone." I said.

We headed down the ramp.

10 minutes later, I'm bikini-clad by the edge, and I sit on a wet part of the boat ramp, 30 cms infront of Lauren. Sarah comes to join me. I squeal as some waves crash onto us, and chat with Sarah as some don't even make it near us.

Next thing I know, a wave comes in and I am laughing, and then the next nanosecond, I am being D-R-A-G-G-E-D out to some rocks by the force of the tide going out. Apparently everyone at the dock and on the rocks stood up and gasped and pointed at me.
I got pulled under. I tried to swim back to Lauren and Sarah, meanwhile they are screaming out to me to swim back out. Waves are crashing. My head gets pulled under. And it bobs back up. And goes under again. I have no idea how, but I somehow manage to make it out to a safe patch and a guy is swimming towards me, motioning for me to follow him, so I do.

I climb out of the water via the ladder, and sit on the rocks for a minute, trying to process what just happened. Little children are staring at me. In fact, everyone is staring at me. I'm shaking, but laughing at the same time. This lasts for about an hour. Then we make our way back home to Corniglia and I fall asleep pretty much straight after dinner.

My wrist hurts. And I have cuts on my feet and my hips. But my head and bones are still in tact.

Something out there is looking out for me.

Or, I've found my purpose in life - to serve as a constant warning to others.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Festy one handed gimp

Hot Soup on left hand @ work = scalding 2nd degree and 3rd degree burns.



Ow.

Sometimes I get really fed up with living in a foreign country where things like this throw me into a spin. Realising that I live somewhere where I am unfamiliar with processes and policies on lifestyle infrastructure (insurance, hospitals, rights, laws etc) make me completely vulnerable, and I hate feeling vulnerable because it makes me feel pathetic.


Thursday, March 4, 2010

When is enough, enough?

The question of the month.

When do you know you've had enough, or don't want to take it anymore?

How can you tell the difference between a rough patch and when it's time to call it quits?

I saw the sun this morning, in all it's glory... I woke up to sunshine, the first time in a long time, and all of a sudden today, everything seems too hard, and I have this feeling that I want to go home.

I don't think I'm homesick, I just think I'm over being here at the moment.

I still don't have a doctor, because it just seems so freaking difficult to track one down on a weekday and register and I really want to see one.

The trek to work is just annoying.

I've been thinking about moving house to be closer to a community, but finding a room that is reasonably priced, with realatively normal people just seems impossible and renting on my own is not even feasible in terms of affordability.

My body just keeps rejecting the idea of being here, with constant little bouts of coughs and growing/shrinking glands, a blemish problem that won't vacate my face ( despite hundreds of euros of treatment from the simple cleansing and moisturising routine with basic products, to the pricier " this will work because a doctor created it and it costs about half a month's rent " type of products) and waistline that won't shrink despite watching my diet.

Work is just... work. Mildly amusing, mostly dull.

The only constant in my life bringing me joy is little Laura.

Maybe I am just tired. Of it. All?

Monday, January 11, 2010

Train mishap# 432

8.12 am
-3 degrees

I am frantically boarding the train to Den Haag, via Schipol, I've just made it with seconds to spare. Usually I get off at Schipol and transfer to the train to Hoofddorp. I am sweaty, puffing, but smug, I am going to be on time... nee, EARLY this monday morning. Yes! Life is good.

8.22 am
Amsterdam Sloterdijk station: Announcement.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, Please depart the train here to change trains to Amsterdam Zuid, and Station RAI. A special announcement; this train is making an extra special stop at Hoofddorp today, an extra special stop at Hoofddorp today."

Hmmm... Did he just say what I think he said?

8.29 am
Amsterdam Leylaan station: Announcement.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, Please ensure you take all your belongings with you as you depart this train. A special announcement; this train is making an extra special stop at Hoofddorp today, an extra special stop at Hoofddorp today."

Ok, it was definitely clear that time. Today is my lucky day! No need to transfer.

8.35 am
Schipol : Announcement.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, This is Amsterdam Schipol International airport. A special announcement; this train is making an extra special stop at Hoofddorp today, an extra special stop at Hoofddorp today."

Ok, I need to be sure about this. I am NOT, repeat, NOT going to Hoorn or Leiden this morning, or Den Haag. I am GOING TO MAKE IT TO WORK.

I turn to the guy next to me;
"Did he just say that this train is going to be stopping at Hoofddorp today?"

"Yes, he did"

"Ok, great thanks."

8.40am
Train approaches Hoofddorp station and slows slightly, and then speeds up again. I am standing at the doors waiting for the train to stop, and notice there doesn't seem to be any intention for the train to actually cease moving.

8.41am
"Ladies and Gentlemen: we've decided not to stop at Hoofddorp station today. We'll be letting you off at the next stop where you can board the next train back to Hoofddorp."


8.45am
-4.5 degrees

I am standing at a train stop (not even a station, it's a platform with a sign post in the middle) in the middle of nowhere, amongst snow covered fields, continuing my mental cursing of NS - the dutch rail company- the train driver, his wife, his dog, and any children he might have, vowing that I will seek his name, and start mastering a grand plan for him to be dumped at this very train stop at 3 in the morning, in nothing but his little train driver hat.

"Ladies and Gentlemen: The next train to Hoofddorp will not be arriving until 9am. We apologise for any inconvenience this may cause you."

Late when I was meant to be early, on the morning my boss comes back from holidays, and cold. Oh so cold.

Fuck You NS. Fuck You.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

The joke is on me...

There's a mass exodus from Amsterdam as of ... tomorrow.

People are starting to take time off work to go away for the holidays.

Laura leaves Thursday.

Substantial quantities of dutch people around me seem to be either;

a) going back to their Villages for Christmas and back between boxing day ("second day of Christmas") and New Years Eve ("Oud en Nieuw") and then refusing to talk about January, like it's some traumatic experience they are bracing themselves for...

OR

b)fleeing between now and mid- late january next year for anywhere from a month to six months... basically until June... when summer starts again...

I couldn't feel my feet tonight, after 20 minutes chatting in the cold followed by 10 - 13 minutes of walking to Centraal Station.

So....

Do you think there might be a correlation with any of the above information?

Hah.

I have been told that if you combine the latest weather conditions, with rain,wind and sleet, you get the essence of Amsterdam in January.

Ah ha ha ha ha...er...ha...ha...ha?

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Actually, I changed my mind, I have something important to say

I was supposed to go home today.

Well, I was supposed to board a flight from Helsinki to Tokyo, and arrive home on the 14th of December. But I was supposed to leave Europe today.

Today was the day I had my flights booked from my original itinerary, because it would have been symbolic of 4 months in Amsterdam, and I figured that I was either going to be lying in a gutter, begging for food, talking in tongues to the junkies in the red light district, or I was going to be ... somewhere else. And if, per se, I was in the former situation, then, better to just go home, or at least live in the knowledge that I know that I have a ticket to go home if I wanted to go home.

Well, I am somewhere else, and ain't that grand, because I am sure that junkies here would much rather be spending their precious time flogging off bikes than trying to interpret my inane banter.

6 months ago, I left my hometown to jump over the edge of a cliff I called "anticipation", and into a dark dark abyss that I call "uncertainty".

I am pleased to say that I am still alive, and my god, am I ALIVE.

I can't get my head around the last 6 months, it feels like yesterday I had to make some of the most gutwrenching "goodbyes" I have ever made in my life, and I still tear up about those memories. And now, I type from my (messy) bedroom, contemplating my day at the office tomorrow, having just got home from a bike ride in the misty, foggy atmosphere, from Nieuwmarkt, along the canals, and the houseboats and the Christmas lights, in the city I live in. And inbetween the date of June 8th, 2009, and right this second, I am sure I have felt every emotion that a human being can feel when faced with an unmapped, and unplanned future.

I just can not believe that it is December. And I live in Amsterdam. And if the last 6 months have just flown, that means the next 9 months of my visa will absolutely fly.

Laura showed me a poem that she studied in highschool, and I loved every word of it after I read it. It has become my mantra for my time here, I carry a copy of it with me every where I go.

More to write tomorrow or the next day I am sure, and I promise December will have more posts and 2010, even more so.

Miss you all.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-William E. Henley

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Bike Maintenance and Shopping Behaviour

I went to the Post Office this morning to pick up a package from Ma (Thanks Ma! xxx)

When I got there, I realised that I would have to haul it back to my apartment somehow... and what was a beautiful Autumn day yesterday (translate: no wind, no rain, spots of sunshine, autumn colours in full bloom) has turned into a wet and windy day... again.

Luckily, next door to the post office, there was a bike shop, and I pleaded with the dude in the shop to sell me an elastic for the back seat of my bike with all the change I could muster (EU 5.70 instead of EU 6.50) He sold it to me, on the condition that I come back to the shop after I get back from London and Berlin, to fix my handlebars that keep sliding off... I promised I would.

Bike maintenance is just such a hassle for me. I barely took care of my cars in Australia, but this bike is doing my freaking head in.

I just bought a rain cover for the seat, which I always have to carry around because in the likely chance that it rains, and my bike seat gets wet, I won't have to sit on a wet bike seat, and because I can't be bothered getting my front light fixed, I bought these little portable lights that i just tie on to the front and back of my bike every night, which is SO annoying. If i get caught with no lights on my bike its a EU 35 fine. Now I need new handlebars, and probably some air in my tires, and I am just about to go shopping for a bell, and some spray paint or flowers to tie to it, because everytime I pass a bike rack that I THINK my bike is in, I can NOT find it for the life of me because there are about 20,000 ( NO FUCKING KIDDING, it's ridiculous) bikes that look like mine, all racked up in a chaotic mess. Add the wind, rain, darkness and usually drunken state that I am in when seeking my bike, and it's just a big ol' shit fight to get home.

But the irony is, the better kitted out and good looking your bike is, the more chances that it will get stolen. So you go to all this effort to personalise your bike, and then some fucker just takes it.

I can't really talk, I suspect the guy that sold me my bike wasn't exactly a legitimate sales person.

In fact, shopping in general can be pain because of the whole "no car" situation, so it's really opportunistic shopping for convenience of carrying little loads in your arms or on your bike. If I happen to be near a chemist or a Hema ( like Big W, but tonnes more awesome and stylish!) I just have to go in and buy stuff I anticipate to be running out of, even if it's the most expensive shop because I just don't want to spend my weekends looking for stuff, and I don't know when the next time will be that I will be near a store like that. If I move house, and am more in the centre, as opposed to the harbour, I think life would be easier, but at the moment, I am just buying things every day to get me through the days...

The dutch haven't really grasped the whole convenience shopping thing yet....like if I want to wrap a present, I have to go to 3 different stores to buy the paper, the stick tape, and the ribbon. The only plaza type place I frequent every day is Centraal Station, and they don't even have a full supermarket, (just 2 x convenience type mini mart things). I would expect a mobile phone store, and also a shoe repair guy there at least!! But nooooo... they just don't get it.

I then went to the bank today to activate my new card (banks are open Saturdays here, Love it!) and then I went to the el cheapo chain store in town (Blokker) to buy some house stuff....because I just got paid!!! Yes!! Yes i did!! Damn it feels good!

The rate of pay was slightly lower than I thought, because I am getting taxed 30% of my wage. 30%... shit. That's high.

Saturday nights plans?
Wallowing. I am feeling a bit low at the moment, the weather is making me a bit flat, and I suddenly feel like my life has plateaued into boredom.

I might have a drink with Irish chef tonight and catch up with him, but otherwise no real plans.

Sunday:
Mobile Phone contract
New handbag
SD card for my camera so that I can finally start taking photos of my house and put them up, and also of my daily life sights!!
Soup?!?

Monday, September 14, 2009

The week that has been ....

I realise I haven't written anything of remote interest recently.

As I review my last few posts, I discover, I have written about laundry, travel statistics, and some other random depressive shit, than.... nothing, for days on end.

I tend to do that when I end up living my life instead of blogging about the life I wish I was living. Then once an event filled week (or month) has ended, I can't ever really remember what I have been doing.

So as I listen to some old school Kylie Minogue, perhaps I shall take some time to reflect on what I did this week.

So, last time I really wrote, it was a Wednesday, and I was checking out of my hostel.

Well, my studio that I am living in at the moment has been B.L.I.S.S - So quiet, so private, my own space. And this neighborhood is great. I really love this part of town.

For reference sake; here's a rundown on what I have learnt about Amsterdam geography.

North: considered to be traditionally old working class, poor, and a grungy, but as per any of the following suburbs around the world, it's being redeveloped and rebranded as "cool". MTV have just set up offices here. The north is technically anything above Centraal Station. The ocean ( i think) separates mainland Amsterdam from the Northern areas. Hence locals that live in the north need to catch (free) ferries from Centraal Station to one of 3 or 4 islands that they live on.

There is also another part of the north that is above Centraal Station (just), that is still part of mainland Amsterdam, and has been totally redeveloped ( about 2-3 years ago) with warehouse style apartments. This area is close to Philips HQ in Amsterdam, and the Amsterdam Passenger Terminal for cruise ships etc, and is called Zeeburg (pronounced 'Zay-burgch'). I will be moving into an apartment there in about 3 days!!

Yes! I found a room, and I didn't say anything initially because I was sort of suspicious about whether it would all work out etc, but IT HAS!!!

I will be living with a 32 year old American lady from Boston, who does something to do with business or something. She is awesome, her name is Amber and she calls me "dude". The apartment is brand new and totally luxe!! My new living room overlooks the River Ij and my bedroom is about 17 or 18 metres squared, which is AMAZING, because the rooms here are tiny, and you pay through the nose for them (like 8 metres squared for 500 EU a month... I had a closet once that was about 4 m2...... can't wait to post pictures up soon!

Ok, back to the geography and culture lesson of Amsterdam.

East:I haven't really explored this area yet, but I have been in the inner city fringes of it. East CBD (Centrum) of Amsterdam is home to the Red Light District, where I lived for about 3 weeks. While I wouldn't recommend staying in this area for prolonged periods of time, contrary to popular belief, it's pretty safe ( like most of Amsterdam.) Sleazy but safe.
My general feeling is that the inner city East is quite expensive and a bit toffee, especially around the Artis Park (Zoo). Once you get past this area though, it starts to get very multicultural, and a lot poorer, with a lot more ethnic diversity, with local and immigrant Surinamese, Morrocan, Turkish, and Carribean communities.

South: Old, rich and posh. The area called the Old South have treelined and wide streets, and the sidewalks are lined with beautiful delicatessens filled with gourmet breads, cakes, pastries, fish, and produce, and boutiques brimming with well tailored garments and the well off ladies that like them, and cafes with sprinklings of hip youngsters with lots of time on their hands, and even more money.

Also home to a groovy little area with funky cafes and restaurants called De Pijp (Literally, 'The Pipe'), Vondelpark (Amsterdam's biggest recreational park, always full on a sunny day, or a day where the sun isn't that apparent, but the wind isn't either) Museum area of Amsterdam, and other entertainment areas in the Centrum.

West: Home to the funk and soul AND the young and loaded.
You can meet real old school Amsterdammers in Brown cafes, and also the young and uber wealthy in trendy pubs. The suburb of Jordaan ('Yor-daan') is arty, trendy, vintage and full of gorgeous canals, canal bridges and little streets. Everybody wants to live in Jordaan, but very few people get the opportunity. The Old West where I am staying now isn't as pretty as Jordaan, but it's still pretty damn cool. It's the quintessential Amsterdam suburb, where people live in tall and skinny buildings that are about 3 stories high, and with shopfronts on the ground floor. A few coffeeshops here, an asian grocer there, a Coffee Company around the corner (think Hudson's coffee or Cafe Nero), a turkish bakery over the road, a laundrymat to the left, a boutique or three just around the bend, and an African restaurant or five dotted around the place.

Anyway, I was supposed to be talking about the week that was.

Ok, so Wednesday, I went pounding the pavement, looking for a job. I dropped off about 10 resumes, not really thinking much about it.

The thing that sucks is that there are signs all over the place looking for fulltime help, or part time help, in cool trendy boutiques, bakeries, and restaurants... EVERYWHERE!!! But everybody asks, "Do you speak Dutch? Unfortunately if you don't, we can't hire you."

Sometimes I just put on a sweet smile, and lie and say in dutch "I can speak a little bit." (It's true - I can count from one to ten. And say thank you. And goodbye. That is classically defined as "a little bit.")

This has gotten me 2 interviews so far.

At around about this time last week, I remember clutching my resumes in a plastic cover in my hand, and gripping them in frustration, recalling a conversation I had with the Ducth Embassy in Canberra...

Me: ... Thanks for all your help with the visa application form. Just a quick question... will it be a problem that I don't speak Dutch, when I look for a job?

Lady: Not, not at all, especially if you just want a job in a shop or a restaurant. Everybody speaks english there.

Anyway, on Thursday, I met my friend Laura for a Big Day Out ( on a limited budget.) We decided to cheer ourselves up because we had no jobs, and nothing to do...

So usually we meet in Dam Square, in the middle of the city centre, but I suggested meeting in Leidseplein ( a tourist square in the inner south ) for a change of Chi. We proceeded to H&M, where we bought thrifty warm items like scarves (Laura) and cheap hosery (2 EU for a pair of tights! Bargain.)

Then we went to the Albert Cuyp markets in the Area of De Pijp, which is sort of a bit boho, and daggy with counterfeit clothes, and used mobile phone stalls, witha few cute stalls here and there. I bought a new pillow, because my neck was crying out for a fluffy little supportive friend.

I got depressed while we were shopping, and Laura had this great idea of buying a bottle of wine, and a bread stick and some olives from the supermarket and going to Vondelpark to sit in the sun (it was unusually sunny that day.)

So we did that, and then I sat on the back of her bike and we made our way to the park. Laura and I get up to heaps of crazy adventures, and they usually start with us meeting for a drink and then deciding to go somewhere else, and I sit on the back of her cool, flower covered mountain bike that she rode around Iceland in, and I sing her songs while she peddles me around Amsterdam.

Usually the songs go;

"Laura and Rani,
We're broke
and we have no money,
But it's always so funny....."

We found a sunny spot in the park, and had out little picnic. She wore her new scarf and I kicked back on my new pillow. About half an hour into our relaxing afternoon, we met these two guys, Leon and Sam, who were actually dutch. (Shock, horror - Dutch people are reknown for not really wanting to mix). Leon and Sam are buddies through their Anthropology course that were doing at the University of Amsterdam.

Then a junkie tried to sell me this bike he was riding on. And I bought it. Well, actually Laura bought it for me. For 20 Euros. And it was too tall for me. But I liked it.

Sam and Leon wanted to show us their favourite bar in Amsterdam, and they took us to this cool bar in the West called "Soundgarden"; a grungy little pub that had a terrace overlooking a canal. We met more of their Anthropology friends, who were nice - then they started drinking beer from someone's shoe, and that sort of freaked me out a little bit. But they were cool nonetheless.

As we were all parting ways, I fell off my bike, in the bike lane outside the pub as it was closing, and everyone was milling outside. Karma's a bitch.

The next day I had to meet and greet some visitors from Indonesia at the airport at 6am. Needless to say, I was not impressed after a big night observing local Anthropology students drink from each other's shoes. I ended up in Den Haag, another town about half an hour's drive away from Amsterdam. Don't ask.

On Saturday, I had a trial shift at a beauty store called "Sabon"; it's like the Dutch version of the Body Shop. It was supposed to go for 3 hours. I was sent home after 1. It was the weirdest trial shift ever. I hadn't even had an interview yet, and they invited me to come in.

They spent 15 minutes talking to me about body scrub, and then they wanted me to experience the products, so one of the girls gave me a facial for half an hour. Then they wanted me to approach customers. I approached 4 and did the things they told me to do, like talk about the products, and give them opportunities to play with this body scrub. And then the store manager told me to come back on Wednesday night for a group interview.

I went out and bought a lock for my bike in an effort to piece together my self esteem, and figure out what the fuck just happened. A trial shift and THEN a group interview?!?

That night, I met up with Sam and Leon, and my friend Sverre and his friend, Mustafa for a drink. Or four. To help forget that I was unemployed, and a Soap shop didn't want me to stay on at a trial shift for free labour that day. It worked, and I managed to forget. I also ate a chocolate muffin that night which heightened my spirits immensely.

On Sunday, I met my visiting aunty and took her and her friends out for the day. No comment.

Today, I met up with Laura again after I had a job interview at a restaurant. I got the job. I start tomorrow.

I can't figure out if I should be happy for the potential income, or if I'm crying on the inside because I hate hospitality and it feels like I am starting a prison sentence tomorrow.

We went out for lunch, and then she went out and bought a new mobile phone, because her's dies everytime you call her and talk to her for 2 minutes. I went to City Hall and collected my tax file number.

I got home and checked my email, and found out that a company I applied for a job with had written to me expressing interest in my application to be an English Content Editor for their website. It's like the European version of Wotif.com . They were just wary about my working visa status. I wrote to them and told them I could work for one year and could send them a copy of my visa. I am beyond ecstatic. If I get this job, I will ONE VERY HAPPY LITTLE LADY!

Keep your fingers crossed people - I don't want to serve coffees and english breakfasts to people for 40 hours a week for a year.

That was my week.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Did someone just try and steal my bag?

I almost got my bag snatched last night, about 500 metres away from where I am currently living. A couple of kids on scooters drive past slowly tried to take my bag from my shoulder and drive off.

Weirdly enough, the scooter driver lost their balance and the guy sitting behind him couldn't reach my bag strap, and he just pushed me over really hard.

Weird, cos at the time, I didn't even know what was happening, until the 2 people I was with informed me of what just happened. Thankfully, IT FAILED, or ELSE I WOULD HAVE BEEN SCREWED!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Good Night, Sleep Tight, I'm probably getting eaten alive by bed bugs tonight...

Nasty, freaky, spotty, itchy spots all over my entire body because the room I'm staying in is definitely not as nice as the one I was in when I first got here, and I am sure the blanket i used last night was infested with fleas or something.

So I asked the staff to change my sheets, and then when everyone was out of my dorm, I swapped blankets with another bed that had just been made.

UUUUUUGGGGGGGH. Bring on Spain!!!!!!!!

I am trying to channel into good vibes only, but it's hard!!

Check out the place me and my amigos will be staying.... ahhhhhhhh, I can almost feel the breeze and the sunshine on my face (irritating my bitemarks), and the cool fruity tangy sangria slipping down my throat....

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Breakfast in Denmark, Icecream in Sweden, Sleep time in Netherlands

My new BFF was a very nice, camp, young (21), Turkish med student dude from Istanbul that was staying in the same dorm as me. His name was Yagiz, but pronounced "Yuuurs" (??) and we hung out a bit.

On the first day we met, after doing some free stuff and eating lunch, we were bored at a cafe, and he randomly ran into a friend of his from Istanbul, Mert, who wsa studying Arts Management in Copenhagen, and who showed us around a bit, introduced us to some locals, and we went to a free moonlight cinema screening of the movie "Milk".

To be honest, Copenhagen was beautiful, but I just didn't feel "it" there. I just didn't like it, and I was spending money on food and survival, and I spent way too much there. There is something to be said for hanging out in a city of rich, beautiful people - your self esteem plummets along with your bank account balance. I wanted to change my flights, and go to Amsterdam sooner, but I couldn't without spending more money.

I mooched around a bit, in a bad mood, eating burger king and getting in worse moods.

Our last night in Copenhagen, we were sitting in the square off the main shopping street, drinking Carlsberg beer from the 7-11 and we met a couple of danish guys and some really young (18) kids from Chicago.

The Danes were crazy, unemployed, bisexual... drinking beers from crate that they had found outside Central Station and carrying a garbage bag of chips around with them, talking to tourists.


Photo courtesy of Chicago Nat's facebook album

We ended up going to a heavy metal club with them called 'The Rock'. I left promptly after arriving, thinking that I was way too old for this crap. By "this crap", I meant hanging out with people a whole generation younger than me, in a place where I felt severely out of place and you had to have 9 holes in your face and have an appreciation for Rage against the machine. I went home.

Yagiz convinced me to live life on the edge, and on our last day in Copenhagen, catch a train to Malmo, in Sweden. For $20 AU i thought being in 3 countries in one day could be a bit of a thrill.

We bought our tickets from Central Station for 78 DKK, and then ate fake subway ( Sunset Boulevard) for breakfast.

Photos courtesy of Yagiz's facebook album
(You probably want to see photos of Malmo and not me eating but whatever, I'll put them up in a big album later.

We caught the train, went down the longest bridge in Europe, connecting Denmark with Sweden, and saw Malmo.

Photos courtesy of Yagiz's facebook album


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It was a shithole ( a pretty shithole, but nothing to do ) but a much cheaper place than Copenhagen; we had walked the entire circumference of the city and saw all it's sights in an hour. I ate an icecream, and a hamburger from burger king.

Photos courtesy of Yagiz's facebook album

We then caught a train to the airport, because he was leaving the same day as me. Even though he was younger than me, we got along like a house on fire, and it was sort of sad to say goodbye even though we only met 2 days ago.


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Arrivéd in Amsterdam last night with a cough, at about 10pm. Upon exiting the airport, all I could smell was marijuana smoke. I decided to skip the hostel I had booked, with suspicions that I would feel worse than better, if I spent hours searching for a tiny hole in the wall hostel, and snuck in to a room with 4 other people. I decided I would live the high life in a 2.5 star hotel near the airport for 49 Euro.

My own room, shower, plasma and a double bed to recover. 10 hours of sleep was bliss.When I caught the free airport shuttle back to the airport, it smelt like weed. I went to the Airport doctor this morning, barely able to speak. It's not Swine Flu, it's just a normal flu. Sweet.

I just went to the newsagent, and thought they might sell an Expat newspaper in english, like othr cities do. ( Jakarta Post? Copenhagen Times?)

"If it was in english, it wouldn't be a dutch paper then would it?" the guy laughed at me.

Whatever. Jerk.

Welcome to my new home, and my new life in Amsterdam.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Initial Copenhagen observations


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1.Everyone is fucking beautiful. And cool. Really fucking cool.
2.Everything is fucking expensive.
3.My hostel seems to be deader than a doornail, even though they claim to be full.
4. The Canadian guy that just checked in is a wanker.
5. I want to be back in Helsinki.
6.My phone doesn't work here and it's really fucking me off because I don't know why.
7. I think I am cranky because I'm all alone, even though the sun is shining in Copenhagen and it's a beautiful city, with beautiful people, and beautiful shops and buildings, and I should be happy.
8. I need to do washing and the nearest laundrymat is a 20 minute walk away.
9. The only thing I could smell for about 2 hours after I checked in was cheap men's spray on deoderant because I am sharing a room with 7 boys, and an old American librarian from Denver, Colorado that wanted to share his life history with me as I was settling into the room. Do I sound thrilled? No? Probably because I'm not.
10. As for point 10, apparently this is the only bed that was free for 3 continuous nights. Mixed dorm, poo.
11. I hate my suitcase more than I hate being by myself.
12. Re-reading point number 8 makes me even more annoyed.
13. My ears are still trying to clear themselves up after the bashing they took on the flight over here.
14. KFC still uses their old branding here. It's retro.
15. Burger King are offering hamburgers for 10 DKK. Approx $2.40. I might be on a Burger King diet for the next 3 days as even a hot dog costs twice this much. To put it into perspective, I bought a bus ticket from the airport to the city and it cost 35 DKK, and an ice tea cost me 25 DKK. I spent almost $15 on a bus ticket and a drink. That would have at least got me a hamburger in Helsinki.
16. I acknowledge this has been a whingey post, but I don't care.

Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow after I eat and check out this jazz club at the end of the street.